Awakening sense

home free

When remembering the Beloved/True Self, the dust cloud (impressions) obscuring our sight drops away. But there's a catch: holding this focus while in heart/mind's stillness, without preconditions or afterthoughts. Then the firm sense of who we think we are gets dislodged.

Such remembrance springs from inner confidence only spirit provides. It naturally flows from exposure to the radiance of awakening's work.

Then ego-mind's no longer the centerpiece of experience. The familiar echoes of its noise are suddenly missing. Like errant homing pigeons they no longer return to prop up conditioned mind. Where would they go but the vast reservoir of awakening's workings?

Whatever is relinquished in this way cuts our 'dust cloud' down to size. Whether whittled away or recycled it's awakening's intelligence at work.

This alchemy creates a deep assurance: nothing matters more than this giving and receiving, love's exchange in our inner garden.

reverse engineering

Attending to Source is an inner affair but our attention usually flies outward. Can we discover the full circle of our journeying by turning this around?

Ego-mind advises against such ventures. It's averse to unexpected shocks like shifting into reverse at high speeds. But heart/mind has a different transmission system. It encourages any turnabout that steers toward Self.

Usually the world extracts our attention, our lifeblood. This fattens personality-self that's at one with this dream world but leaves our core malnourished.

But if we stop feeding the world we can start digesting and reshaping what the world presents us. Our storehouse of impressions gets cut to size, ego-mind is effaced.

Then the current of psyche's lifeblood gets routed toward Self. There in awakening's domain it's transformed for spirit's lifting and gets recycled back to us. Almost like a form of cosmic dialysis.

That's the essence of surrender, the kernel of yogas and practices, the nuts and bolts of inner transformation, the alchemy of a daring heart.

all fall down (pt.2)

A living breathing network of programmed bits and pieces (impressions) surrounds us. These dust-like particles we give life to float suspended in mind's currents. The attention we pay them is a net that both attracts and contains. It's like a tonic that makes them buzz and swarm around us.

What happens when temporarily ignored? They shrivel up deprived of nourishment. Remember those lines from a children's game 'we all fall down?'

They 'all fall down' and play dead, dropping to the ground by their own dead weight, lifeless for the moment.  Like children they jump up to play again whenever we start missing them.

What can really clear the air? The stunning influence of awakening: its pull can be so absorbing that we snap out of usual preoccupations. A riveting awareness takes over. The old is overwhelmed and the flame of a new intensity opens the heart, lightens the mind.       (also pt.1)

snowflakes stirring

Remember as a child watching miniature scenes in snow globes? Polar bears are surrounded by swirls of snow when the globe is shaken. This animates the scene and creates more fascination.

Our mind's sphere is likewise agitated, stirred up by various furies and forces. A snowstorm of thoughts and feelings fill the air. Sometime our world is shaken up, sometime turned upside down.

We're mesmerized by this motion and feel uncomfortable without its stimulation. Each floating globule of thought insists 'express me!'  This confetti-like glitter has a certain beauty but obscures clear vision and distracts deep feeling.

When our focus stops feeding them the clouds of snow fall to the ground leaving a sudden spaciousness. This clears the air for the impact of awakening, for a silent knowing.