What do you mean the process of awakening could result in a special sensation (see pt.1)?
Well, the process would be that awakening's urge or current is gradually or not so gradually overhauling the ego-mind, eroding its grip on us that sustains the belief of who we think we are and the impact of that being very tangible and very welcomed.
By tangible you mean a certain sensation that we might be aware of?
Yes, one that becomes more real and concrete than our sense of touch or taste and subsumes all our other modes of experiencing. One that might follow as some cracks develop in mind's superstructure, some fear and trembling due to an awakening heart....the essential fear being of ego-mind's basic nothingness, a fear fed by ignorance of the bigger picture (see Overview). Let's call it a sensation that the heart recognizes, so substantial and vital that it would supplant a distracted, conflicted mind with a spontaneous focus on this life's core.
Sounds like a new state of being.
Sure, a new taste and feel of what we take ourselves to be. Such a unique sensation would naturally differ with everyone, but it would certainly be of a completely different order than anything we presently know, and it would not be an isolated mental perception unenlivened by heart's fire. As such, it would be more significant than the outward show of somatic or energetic acrobatics often attributed to this process, though it would surely suffuse our body's every cell.
Well, you're describing what could happen, but what about the meantime?
Again, the idea is that this process is ongoing, continuous and uninterrupted whether our awareness of it is there or not, whether tangible or not. Any spiritual efforts on our part then, at best, invite and align us with this current of awakening.
Is the urge to awaken the same as the question "Who am I?"
I think one and the same in the sense that it is the urge itself truly asking that question. So there's a feeling and knowing that can come from that urge, not from who I think I am.
And how tobe aware of that question emerging from such an inner depth?
Maybe a special sensation, a knowing that a very special process is in play. Maybe that's what spiritual maturity amounts to, a distinct sense that something of the greatest value is getting done regardless of our awareness of it.
If there's no awareness of it, what's the point of it; how are we actually involved?
Awareness yes; perhaps not continuous by far, yet momentous at the least. Also this simply underlines an acknowledgement of the extent of our self-delusion, of ego-mind's dominance.
And you would call that spiritual maturity?
Yes, in part. As this attitude grows, the doubt that anything can truly change decreases, opening the heart to feelings of gratitude, trust and a deeper knowing.